update post

This post is purely to tell u guys that this blog is not dead.

Holidays! There are lots of work to do, and my greatest goal will be to finish them all (which i never had).

Enjoy, and jiayou everyone!

sorry people..

Time passes and goes. So does people, if you don't cherish them.

Today i met Ms Cheong. It is so glad to hear her call me by my name, but at the same time i am very guilty when she says that she had not seen me for a long time.

Shit. How can i forget this lady who cared so much for me in Beijing? How can i simply let go of the memories of us walking together in several scenic parks, when we ignored the crowd and enjoyed the serenity?

And indeed, i believe i have not catch up with many people. So, sorry..

But i admit that i am not used to initiating chats. I find it hard to start a conversation. And i hate it when we run out of things to talk about. Such a chat is often meaningless and straining, isn't it?

Now back to school life..

Somehow it always takes me one year before i can be accustomed to my class. In Sec 1 and Sec 3, i believe i am very very introvert, although i still am, since it is my personality that is almost impossible to change. But i really enjoyed almost every minute in class, whether it is during lessons or breaks. During lessons, we would always have certain individuals to lighten up the atmosphere and i am very glad that they do so. During breaks, things become crazier. Just not long ago we still have an old tchoukball in our class and not surprisingly it is treated as a soccer ball. And when people started kicking the ball in a limited area accidents will happen. And sometimes when something funny is going on in the "soccer field" another would be happening elsewhere. Thus you can be confused over what to laugh about, or which side you want to join.

Term 2 almost over! Monday is IHE EOY, and i would simply memorise the notes and hopefully they will be put into good use in the exam. Then Tuesday it is rest day! Home learning day..hmm..i remember the last time when we did this (Sec2?) it seems that homework was not marked and the day was hardly a home learning day. Hopefully...ya...because i really wanted a break from studies.

So that's it.

1 more down

Physics. Down.

Fri-maths
Tue-ihc
???-chem
sometime in week 9-bsp
week10 mon-ihe history

It doesn't look that bad does it? But it would be quite a struggle to force myself to give my best to every test; every time when one test is over i tend to have the fatal and stupid impression that everything is over.

If i am to correct this problem, i should be practising on my further trigo problems now.

And i will, now.

finally

Everyone complains that my blog is SERIOUSLY DYING.

Last post during CNY? i think it's because AO has began its conquest of my time.

AO=Atlantica Online. Beware of addiction. But if you do play, pm tintinLEO and ask anything. Or email/msn me. lzy93-leo@hotmail.com

I had been finding excuses for not posting anything, but now i realised that it is so easy to crap things out. Perhaps i will be posting more often.

What is the purpose of blogging? What is YOUR purpose of blogging? Talk to a dead, virtual screen? Or hoping that someone will see your blog? Then why don't just talk to the person directly? Or is it MASS transmission of emotions and thoughts?

If i don't know my purpose probably subsequent posts will be as boring and unreadable as this. Ok, not really expecting any viewership, i can understand if u gave up hope on this blog which had its life drained away.

TEST WEEK nest week...JIAYOU ba. I hate regrets. Or everyone does. MUG more and no more wasting of time and AO-ing!!!

ok enough of talking-to-myself. sleep.

The CNY holidays really ended very swiftly, because gaming really fast forwards time in at least 10x. I am already controlling my gaming time, though not as effectively as i would hope, since i have formulated that i am going to get rid of those panda eyes and tiredness. It would be impossible to stop playing at all, but diverting the energy to doing other things should work.

I do not have the habit of giving birthday presents, and sometimes i really regret it. Perhaps its because i lost contact with my primary school friends, and that most of my friends are male. I am not sure if it will seem weird to give a male friend a birthday present. Cakes of course are fine, but when it comes to a birthday card and present..i just don't know what to say.

What about female friends? I hardly have any, of course there is huiyee=) (i would rmb your birthday) Anyway i would have chances to make more friends in the jc. For now, i would give some presents for friends that really make an impact on me.

Just very boring, hence the sianz atmosphere in this post. Sorry guys. I just need to talk to someone, even if it is the net.

I like running on the wet grass in the morning.

It's not the muddy wet, it's the refreshing wet of morning dew. Other than some relatively bare patches, the grass field is perfect.

Running barefooted somewhat makes one reminisces the childhood years. I don't actually have any particular memories of these kind, but the experience itself just seem to make you feel so carefree and elated, like something draggy and heavy was taken away. While it isn't very pleasant on the ankles (because the ground is too hard), it certainly is something that can well become a sort of hobby.

Having said so much, anyone interested? Haha, don't worry too much about the dirtiness. It is just that some grass will stick to your feet. Simply wash it, it's worth it.

One thing that i have to mention: it's early in the morning around 6.20am. oops. I can imagine your reaction =)

And it's the start of the CNY holidays! Woots! Although there are quite a load of homework to complete, a 5-day break still has extraordinary effects for the very very tired and weary student..haha.

I think i begin to like to be tired. At least when your muscles ache the bed will feel much more comfy and comfortable. Moreover, if you don't exercise at all you tend to feel more tired on the whole.

Ran out of things to say! Anyway there will be lots of chances to post. Happy CNY guys =)

I dont want to be emo too.

Perhaps i am not emo now. Its just like a period of depression, and now things get better. Not that the problem is solved totally. Nor am i going to take the initiative to try things out, since that would hurt that person. Its just that i have decided to steer away from emo-ism and instead be a more positive and cheerful person.

I really want to thank you guys who have been caring for me all this while. Thanks alot.

I wonder what type of cheerful stuff can i write about. About CNY coming? Indeed there will be 5 days of holidays, BUT, with tons and tons of academic pressure-homework and tests. I guess i have to be really determined to do my work before gaming, otherwise the 5 days will be, well, fun but wasted.

Oh ya, it will soon be my sister's birthday! Hmm i wonder if she reads my blog, but hereby i still wish her a very happy birthday! Good luck for your new poly life! Haha its quite funny to say something to someone u see everyday, though.

To that someone: Your birthday is coming soon, but i really dont know what i can do for u. You will definitely feel that i am weird if i give u a birthday present or card, since we are only very normal friends. I guess i will celebrate your birthday through my blog then. Meanwhile, happy CNY and enjoy the holidays! Good luck for your coming tests as well (your term 1 tests should be around the corner le ba) =)

Ok happy ending! Dont complain that i am emo le, anyway you guys wont have to say that again=) Hope that i will have time to update regularly.

*self-assessment of this weekend: very poor, spent so much time on gaming!!!

Now its been more than a week.

Sighs cant help it. There are just so many assignments to complete, that just being able to listen to some of my favourite music would already be great. And its not just the pile of homework that doesnt really become lesser, but also all those mixed, contradicting and difficult emotions, which only increase in weight everyday. I have been thinking so much that i begin to fear if i will go crazy one day. Theyre all problems that i may have over-exaggerated, but they are just so heavy.

Perhaps everyone needs that someone who are neither your family nor your friends. Or perhaps this is too young an age. Perhaps its not yet a matured mind. Perhaps you should not dwell over it. Perhaps its just not it.

Many a times that someone might not know. He or she might already be pursuing his or her own happiness. Sometimes you feel that you should avoid from thinking too much. Lets stay as friends.

What if that someone treats you a little bit, just a bit, more than a friend? What if... No, no, you cant. You tell yourself to give up on these wishful thoughts. And the battle between the two sides of the mind continues. In the end, you are the one who suffered the most.

Is there a way out? You dont know. Or you choose to be oblivious to the path which is just right in front of you. Or, its just too hard to say goodbye.

...

Ah...

This song, makes you think of that someone.

And now, you can barely control the pouring emotions.

For a week i cant think of anything to write, I guess i am just getting sianz about the start of school.

Well this year's new teachers are a mixture of shocks and surprises. First, Mr Tan Hock Chye for Physics! I stunned for a while when i saw his name; so many ppl have been talking about how they dont understand his lessons, such that i sort of developed a phobia of him haha. And they say he is, ahem, very strict in giving ace and op. But it all turns out to be still ok. Yes his way of teaching is indeed 'special', and although he can finish going through a topic in 10+ slides it took me quite some effort to understand what it is all about. Or perhaps physics is just not easy to grasp. But at least he helps us in our practicals haha. So yup, lets see how things go.

Second, Ms Matthews for history! Yeah! You might be thinking that wa zhiyuan whats good about her but i really like her teaching style. She tells you exactly how the answer must be structured. She tells you what are the necessary keywords. She gives model answers. She give loads of practice, just to train us in our speed in writing and thinking. And, she can be humorous sometimes. I am rather dependent on teachers to tell me what to do, tell me the right things etc, hence i guess that why i'd like to have her as my history teacher.

Third, Mdm LiuQ for Chinese! Having been with her for quite some time in China, i am starting to know her better. Erm i am not quite sure about how others think of her, but i seriously think that she can be a effective, efficient and responsible teacher, other than being sarcastic and humorous (argh cant think of other adj for humorous). Hey not that i am 拍马屁-ing, its just personal opinions. Anyway i am stunned as well when she appoints me as the rep. Shall try to be a responsible rep =)

Fourth, Ms Lina Yong for english! I dont know how is she like although i know who she is. Hmm very pleasant, very kind as for now (we all dont know what someone is like when he or she gets really mad). A diagnostic exercise right on the first lesson, and it is to deliver a 2min speech! Argh i dont like speeches, as i get real nervous and even feel that i am shaking a lot. And i am not sure if i am loud enough. Most importantly, i have no confidence doing english. My vocab is so limited and my grammar is so out of place, and yet i am still so lazy to do anything about it. Will reading help? Sighs idk, just hope that she will help motivate me to improve my english haha.

Fifth, Mr Png for Maths? I am like who he is when i saw his name on the timetable. Then just on the first lesson he left a lasting impression on me. Funny, Crappy, No-link, but strict. It is impossible to not laugh in his lessons. I dont think i am very confortable with his style of teaching yet, haha i still prefer Ms Ang's way. Why cant she teach us? zzz...But anyway having no choice, i got to try my best getting used to this. One thing i cant tolerate about him: WHY MUST WE COPY DOWN EVERY QN WE DO!!! THIS IS WASTING TIME, WASTING INK, AND WASTING PAPER!!!

Sixth, Mr Vincent Tan for Chemistry...hmm...He is a good friend la, but when it comes to teaching...Based on the Beijing experience i dont quite understand what he teaches. Maybe he makes things more difficult and profound. I just hope chem wont be a disaster this year. 想当年when Mrs Sow teach us...she makes chem the easiest subject. Nvm, shall give both Mr Tan and I some time to get used to everything, should be of no problem. 高飞！haha, very random, but once i see him i will think of 高飞.

Seventh, Mr Paul Ho for IHC...again heard of many bad things about him, like always coming to class late and owing ppl ace. But they all say that he can teach. Well, havent seen him, lets see how things go for tmr's first lesson. And, see how late will he be...

Thats about all for this year's teachers. I never expected to write so much haha, at first i am still like so sianz and so bored. If you read until here i am really grateful for your patience=) But even if you dont i still thank you for reading a bit. Two homework to go, but since i still have some time..hehe, i will see la.